Daily Thoughts #1

Time: 2153

Date: 16/12/2018

My sister suggested that I should write more on this blog, apparently blogging's pretty popular. I suck at consistency, but I guess I'll give it a try.

So, I graduated high school at the end of 2017, and in March I got the results I needed to enroll into college. My friends went off to college, and soon we separated from then. I'm at home most of the time, it's kinda exhausting. Sometimes it feels like I have no future, no objective, no big dream.

Seeing my best friends go far in college, it makes me proud, but sometimes it saddens me. I feel like I can't move forward, ever. My brother is in school, leaving home and seeing friends, going to tuition, doing things in his life.

When I tell my family that I need to go out, need to see my friends, they don't understand why. I don't think anyone ever will because I suck at explaining, I'm terrible at expressing how I feel without beginning a fight. I think I'm terrified of sharing my opinions these days because of that. I can't blame my friends, I never can, but I don't want to start a fight because I can't handle the pressure.

Ugh, I really miss my friends, I really want to go out and hang out with them, but thanks to the jetlag from Dubai, I can't.

I hope I get to see them soon, ugh.